Earlier in the week -
So there’s a gaming and science fiction convention this weekend, Cleveland ConCoction. This is its third year and every year we’ve gotten weekend passes though we don’t usually spend all that much time there. The con was started by friends of ours so we consider it supporting them.
The first year was the first time I had worn the Dark Phoenix outfit. It was a good time though we didn’t really participate in all that much.
The second year the dog was sick so we again didn’t participate a lot.
This year… I’d originally planned on debuting my Rogue outfit but now I’m not so sure I’ll put in the effort. The parking is going to be more difficult as a lot of it is under reconstruction for the upcoming Republican National Convention (as if I didn’t already have enough reasons to hate it) so that will make leaving and returning (necessary to take care of our dog) more difficult, as well as just getting there in the first place. I don’t know if it’s the anxiety from all of the logistics, but I’m also feeling very stupid for wanting to dress up, feeling pointless. I’m pointless. I’m tired. I don’t know how long we’ll actually end up spending there this year either.
But now I got to work.
A little later in the week -
I’m feeling a bit better now, it’s nice to talk to friends. Also, alcohol. Still don’t know what the schedule for this weekend will be, but I’m working to relax about it.
I guess I’d like to dress up, but I’ll see. I still feel silly.
Saturday evening -
Been having a good time at Cleveland ConCoction this weekend.
There was a pirate themed wedding yesterday at midnight (so technically this morning, eh?).
Today I actually wore the Rogue costume I've been putting together for a couple of years. You may have seen the pictures in which I've been tagged. I still feel silly for dressing up sometimes (most of the time) but it feels like an accomplishment. And was fun. But now I'm so exhausted and skipping out on a couple of different parties in favor of going to bed early. Like after one more episode of Community.
Currently planning to go up again tomorrow for another panel or two. There's so much offered at ConCoction that we actually only ever get to experience a small portion of it. Maybe next year we'll rent a room for at least one of the nights just to make it easier.
Sunday evening -
I'm quite taken by surprise when strangers are super nice. Most people this weekend were very nice, and the experience on whole went very well. Much better than I expected from how I felt earlier in the week.
Towards the end of the convention we attended two presentations that were both cohosted by the same pair of cosplayers, Mogchelle and Alexa Heart. They were helpful and did a great job. Afterwards we chatted with them for a while as well as with Katie Starr, aka Nerd Girl Cosplay. Like I said earlier, super nice, very supportive, great people.
Afterwards I messaged them all through FaceBook thanking them for their time, my disappointment in having missed their other presentations, and the hope that they'll be back next year. They all responded quickly, and it seems we'd left good impressions. So, yay :)
But really what started me down this meandering missive was Katie Starr. One of the presentations she did which we'd missed was about how cosplay can be used to cope with depression and other similar issues. You can imagine how this is pertinent to my experience, especially in the last week. I'd mentioned that to her and she offered to be available if I needed to talk about it. And I'm still sitting here going "me?" Seriously, I just, look, from my history, I don't expect help and have a lot of trouble asking for it, and I'm surprised when someone offers it so freely. I don't really know the exact point I'm trying to make here, I guess that I'm just surprised when people are so nice to me because I so rarely feel like I deserve that much consideration, which bespeaks as much about me as it does them.